Embracing the Light: Celebrating Good Days Amidst the Struggles

This morning, I woke up to a bright sun shining through my window, filling me with a sense of hope and anticipation for the day ahead. Instead of taking my usual 8:00 AM nap, I sat down at my computer, inspired to write. I couldn’t help but reflect on my past good days, and a part of me wondered how long this feeling of joy would last. Typically, my good moods fade around one o’clock when my body begins to break down, forcing me to take an afternoon nap just to get through the evening.

Yesterday had been particularly challenging, and I realized how my struggles were affecting my family’s meal choices. My inability to plan healthy dinners while battling fatigue has left them without the nourishment they need. But today is different; today, I am determined to take charge. I will plan meals for the week, ensuring my family has good food in the refrigerator.

When good days feel few and far between, it’s essential to celebrate every moment of joy. I’m not sure if it’s the 18 hours of sleep I got yesterday, a positive response to my medication, or simply a brief glimpse of happiness before the pain returns, but I’m choosing to embrace it. I will cherish every second and every feeling, so when the shadows of pain creep back in, I can remind myself that there were good moments amidst the darkness.

In the depths of chronic pain, it’s often hard to look up, but today I feel blessed. God has given me this moment just when I needed it most, a reminder that the sun rises each day and brings with it a fresh opportunity to live. With this in mind, I plan to step outside and try to walk to the end of the street and back. I’ll order groceries and fully appreciate this moment of clarity, knowing that it may not last long but is invaluable all the same. Today, I choose joy.